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Director Of My Own Life Story

Director Of My Own Life Story

I'm the writer of my own life story
But making up the plot as I go along
I'm the only actor in my own life story
No feeding of lines, I'll improvise
Obsessions
Reflections
Questions, but not all the answers
A beginning, but no ending
Someone else gets to finish my masterpiece
I can say what I want to say
There'll be no censor's scissors snip
My use of silence
When words just aren't enough
Like a quiet riot
I'll be contradictory
But that's me, that's me
I won't put a palm tree in the background
When a hedge is my backdrop, honesty, honestly.

I'm the director of my own life story
I will cut out all the false takes not the mistakes.

I'm not in it for an Oscar, my moment in the spotlight
Just a cinema, with an audience of one.

Arctic blast of reality if my feet try to leave the floor
Sins thought of and sins done
I don't want to save the world
I just want to walk my talk
I swear it's the truth, the good and the bad
I swear it's the fool, the genius and the fraud
I'm the director of my own life story.

V Topp

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